Halloween/All Saint's Day

Halloween is a tough time of year for. It is probably my favorite holiday. We have a huge family and friend's Halloween party with friends and family members from all sides, and I mean ALL sides. It's kind of odd, but we are odd. It was one of Wendy's favorite holidays, too. This is why it is so hard. Two years ago this month she died and left us to celebrate our favorite Holiday by ourselves. I left a witch at her grave this year and I'm quite certain it was the ONLY grave with a witch on it. But, she loves it I'm sure. This holiday brings back so many memories. Some good and some not good; one year we were on the outs and didn't spend it together and it was the worst Halloween ever! But yesterday I was overcome with sadness and happiness at the same time. We went to see her son, Alex, play in a band competition and I could imagine her watching and smiling at him. I cried a few times during his performance, luckily no one noticed. I would say I felt her presence yesterday. I pray it's true, I pray God let's us look in on our family. I pray she sees us tonight, me dressed like a hooker (Snookie), Lilya dressed like a dog, the boys dressed as the dorks they are.
Today at church our pastor reminded us that it's All Saints Day tomorrow and to pray to the one's we've lost. Please pray for each other.

Saint Theresa's Prayer

May today there be peace within.
May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be.
May you not forget the infinite possibilities s that are born of faith.
May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you.
May you be content knowing you are a child of God. Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love.
It is there for each and every one of us

Yes, He's Going to Freakers Ball.

So, I posed on Facebook a couple of weeks ago to get other people's opinion about whether or not I should let my son (13 years old) go to Freakers Ball. The overwhelming majority said 'hell, no". But, I have gone against the majority. He's going. Here's why. I don't feel like I have to justify it to anyone but I want to share my reasons (ok, so that's justifying it to you). He LOVES music. Music appears to be his one and only passion as of yet. It's not my favorite type, heavy metal/rock, but it's ok. I read a lot of the lyrics when he gets new cd's and they're not too bad. A few 'f' bombs are dropped here and there, but they get dropped in my home here and there too sometimes. I don't want to stifle the passion. I don't want for him to feel like I don't accept the type of person he is becoming. What if someday he is a famous drummer? What if then he gets on stage at Madison Square Garden and says "Thanks mom for letting me be me" and paves the way for other kids to feel accepted. What if? Also what if he never becomes a famous drummer? Then who gives a shit, so he went to a rock concert and heard some 'f' bombs and saw some scantily clad ladies....then what? Then he leads a regular life and goes on with his passion in his free time. I don't want to be the person that says 'no' to someones dreams. Maybe it's silly but he could very well be a famous drummer someday. He has all the qualities: Handsome, Smart, ADHD, Good with the Ladies, Mad Drumming Skills....that is all you need. I think I am making the right decision. Yes, there are weirdos at Freakers Ball....but it's all about the music for him. There are really great bands this year. I hope the ladies keep their privates covered but if not, oh well....he sees that at the pool.